really, it's not about me

-8 degrees Celsius? and it’s only gunna get colder…

plain ridiculous.

the bird

Today, one of my 3rd grade boys flipped off his classmate that he was physically fighting with. I was so shocked that he even knew that the middle finger was bad at such a young age and being from a different country. i got so mad that i started yelling at them (in english) and of course they were dumb founded and were asking each other what i was saying. since i couldn’t discipline them myself, i made them follow me to the vice principal’s office and told them to sit and i just went back upstairs to start my class. i couldn’t explain to the vice principal that they were fighting and that one of the boys flipped off the other kid because i’m supposed to never use any korean in front of any of my students. so, i bet that they didn’t tell the vice principal the whole story and got off with just being yelled at instead of something worse. they came back up and were forced to apologize to me for being a nuisance, but i still don’t think there was any justice with this whole situation. this 3rd grade class is the worst…filled with boys that are out of control, i don’t know what to do with them.

i think it’s cute when the kids laugh at the name “victoria” but when a boy chooses the name “unicorn” they don’t laugh at all…-_-

stretching

as an athlete, stretching is KEY to performing at your highest and best abilities, no matter what sport it is. Golf to swimming to curling to basketball, all requires proper stretching before anything else. when i was captain of the basketball team in high school, i had to lead stretching before practice started and i remember one time my coach got on my case about how one practice we stretched for a certain amount of minutes, but then that day we only stretched for this amount of minutes. he said i have to be more consistent with how long we stretch for and started giving me a hard time and i was thinking to myself, “why the heck does it matter if we stretched for 30 seconds less than the day before?” i thought he was just trying to find a reason to give me a hard time, but, ultimately he just didn’t want anyone getting hurt because they didn’t stretch well enough or whatever. i guess i understand his viewpoint, now.

i feel as a christian too, stretching, is key to growing a deeper relationship with God. without being “stretched” we, as followers, aren’t being challenged to have more faith and we’ll just remain the same or become stagnant. but, what does it exactly mean to be “stretched?” i guess for me, i interpret it as being tested to my limits, where i’m forced to ask for help and seek for His guide and hand. being in korea, i feel like i’ve been stretched to the max, and that i’m learning SO much because of it. God has revealed to me many things that i wasn’t aware of back at home where i wasn’t being tested, since i was comfortable and in a familiar environment where i can just do things without really having to think much about it—no effort in anything. i realized i don’t want to be in korea, but i NEED to be here, but all for my benefit. i need his help in order to realize my short comings, to realize He is the only one i can depend on. without Him, i am nothing.